I haven't had a true OP (on plan) day in I don't know how long. It's a tad frustrating because when I was doing well, I wouldn't wake up in the morning and wonder if I'd stay OP today. No, in fact it was a given. There would be no question that I'd eat what and how much I should. I just did it and that was that. And on Mondays I'd step on the scale and know my weight would be lower. It was just a matter of by how much.
Now it's a daily struggle that I'm mostly losing. For the most part it's only a couple points here and there...but it's not gonna get these last few pounds off.
When I think of it, I shouldn't be so surprised. I do this all the time. I go 80% of the way and then stop. Not sure if it's because I get lazy or what, but I get to where it's "good enough" and then I stop. I do good, but not great. The story of my life.
So I need to ask myself what I really want. I'm comfortable at this weight. I'm reasonably happy in my clothes and I don't feel like a big blob anymore when I walk into a room. On the other hand, I'm still technically overweight and I hate my body in a bathing suit or *eek* naked. And if I stop paying attention now...I could very well gain much of the fat back.
I love the WW's concept of looking at calorie consumption over a week. You've got your daily minimum and then you weekly points. Love it...gives me so much freedom. However, when I go over my weekly points during the week, I feel like giving up for the week. Ah, I'll start over on Monday. You and I both know that's not exactly good weight loss behaviour, so I've been restarting my attitude each and every day. Plugging along and trying not to get out of control and undo all that I've accomplished in this past year.
Lifestyle, lifestyle, lifestyle...
I'm amazed at how much of my identity is wrapped up in food. Why??? It's silly, really. Somehow I feel like myself when I'm chowing down. I feel full, I feel comforted and then I feel guilty.
I want to feel like myself when I'm saying no to food and only feel satisfied...not stuffed.
This is going to be a long road...I'm by no means there yet.