Am I really going to leave my children in less than a week? For 9 days??? What am I thinking? Is it too late to cancel this trip?* To Jamaica? In the hot, beautiful sunshine. With white beaches and calm, blue water. At an all-inclusive resort that does not allow children?
I'm freaking out, my friends. Freaking out.
How am I gonna say good-bye to the 3 little lives that have been my life for the last 6+ years? I was almost asleep last night when my eyes flew wide open as I was thinking about saying good-bye to them.
I'm not worried about them, they'll be in excellent hands. And they'll have tonnes of fun.
And really, I could not be MORE excited to go. Just be a wife. Just be me. Sleep when I want. Eat when I want without feeding another being at the same time. Read when I want. Do nothing. For a whole week.
But, I miss will my kids and the guilt is starting to set in.
Ack! What am I doing?
*Don't worry. I will not cancel this trip. I will go.