Wednesday, December 2, 2009

A Long Overdue Update

I've not blogged about my weight lately.  I've not really blogged about much lately if the truth be known - as you may have noticed.  But I have been avoiding blogging about my weight and my fitness because, well, there's nothing really to tell.

Weight wise, I've been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds for the last year and the last time I weighed, I was 2 pounds higher than 1 year ago.  I waver between being proud of myself that I've basically maintained this weight (aka not in the obese range, which for me is a big deal) for the last year and being frustrated with myself that I'm 18 pounds heavier than I was at my lowest weight.

Fitness wise, I've been pretty consistent with my exercise.  I'm in moderate shape, but I haven't been pushing myself.  Again, I'm teetering between being proud of myself for exercising more regularly than I have since high school when I was forced to and being frustrated that I haven't made any of my fitness goals, like jogging 5 km without stopping.

It's one of those things where I'm not excelling, but I'm doing pretty good.  You know, doing enough to get by.  Story of my life where in my head I want to do awesome, but I end up doing ok.  Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled with the fact that I don't have to buy plus sized clothes anymore.  I'm proud of myself and feel that I've accomplished a lot, but I could be doing better and I would like to.  I'm still 30 pounds overweight.  Or maybe 25 depending on the chart you look at (and that's the high range of 'healthy' that the experts give).  I'm not beating myself up about it, but I do miss that feeling of accomplishment that I felt on a regular basis when I was rockin' the weight loss.

I was watching Biggest Loser last night.  (Which can I say...why, oh why does it have to be 2 hours every week?  Seriously, could there be more repeated crap in one show?  Honestly, if I didn't have a PVR where I could fast forward through almost half of it, I'd have stopped watching it by now.  Rant over)  Did you see it?  The top 4 ran a marathon.  I sat and watched them all run/walk it with heaping amounts of admiration because since I started the couch to 5K almost TWO YEARS ago, I've yet to run 5K.  As I sat watching it, (and polishing off an entire layer of chocolates - shhhhh...don't tell anyone ok?  Our little secret?) I decided that if they could go 26.2 miles in one shot, I could run a measly 3.  What's 3 miles right?  Well, it's been a huge road block for me.

Until today!  Yup, that's right!  Today I finally conquered my 5K block.  I jogged 5K.  Yes, it took me 36 minutes and yes I'd like to get it under 30 and yes my knees kinda hurt.  But I did it.

Oh yes I did.

Guess there's something to that never giving up thing, hey?


  1. I've had about a zillion different comments that I want to type, but I think my main 3 thoughts are:
    a. I am SO with you.
    b. Maintenance sucks - its harder than losing cuz of the total lack of excitement (and stickers at WW meetings) and lack of people commenting on your loss and well, just cuz food is so DARN good. argh.
    c. HOLY COW you jogged the 5K????????? WOW WOW WOW - you are amazing and I wish I was more like you!
    and in conclusion:
    d. you should stick with feeling proud of yourself - its hard and you're doing a good job. Don't quit.
    And here's a HUUUUG... I hope you have a great day tomorrow!

  2. I think you are AMAZING. Really. All that you do every day absolutely astounds me. 5k is incredible.

    While you were running 5k I was eating haagan daas ice cream to drown my report card sorrows.

    Give yourself a huge pat on the back my dear friend. You deserve it.

  3. So proud of you! I've been struggling with the stress-eating lately and feeling like crap as a result. Also feeling guilty for neglecting my treadmill these last months, but not knowing how to fit it into my busy days. Not an excuse, but that's where I'm at. Anyways, you ARE doing awesome. Maintenance is still an accomplishment. You are truly an inspiration. Now one of these days I will look up the couch to 5k program and begin.....

  4. i saw your 5k announcement on facebook...don't think i realized it was your first time?

    congrats!!! amazing what we can do when our minds are made up.

    i haven't been blogging either... not much to tell.

  5. You are doing beautifully! Always stay positive and see from where you came!

  6. Wow!! 5k RUN???

    You inspire me every time I read your words!!

    Keep up being so fabulous!!