If you've been reading this blog for awhile, I think you'll know that one of my biggest fears (aside from losing a loved one or something) is gaining my weight back. I just don't want to go there again.
The last 6 months or so, I've been fighting the same 10 pounds. Up too far, then down some, then back up again. And again...I'm struggling to lose on a consistent basis to get back to where I was last summer. And I feel SO fat. So very large. But I know while I'm 20 pounds up from my lowest adult weight...I could (and have been) so much farther away. 80 pounds in fact. I'm still 80 pounds lighter than I was after Nate was born. And that's nothing to sneeze at.
And if that's not enough, I found a picture that was taken about 5 months after Mr. Nate was born. Are you ready? I was shocked when I stumbled upon it tonight.
Okay...here it is...
Yup. And I remember feeling like those jeans were good on me! What was with those little mini pockets??? Shudder
And that, I suppose, is a little bit of perspective.
I think you're doing amazing Amanda! I've known you for a long time (about 12 years already!) and i've seen you at different weights. You have come so far and at least that picture is in the past. While I think you look great with or without that 10 lbs. you're fighting, you can be grateful you aren't anywhere near what you were. I'm still amazed when I look at your before and lowest weight pics and the differences. You've worked hard to get where you are and I admire you for that. I know I have about 35 lbs. to lose yet till i'm happier about how I look, and you inspire me to get at it. Love you sister!
ReplyDeleteManda I am continuously so proud of you! I know you are finding this so challenging but as you are remembering you have already won! You are an inspiration my friend. I miss you lots.
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I only just started reading your blog so I don't know much about your journey to get to the place you are now, but wow, what a spectacular difference in your photos. Clearly you have a great deal of determination and commitment to be where you are now, even if you haven't quite gotten to where you ultimately want to be.
ReplyDeleteAmanda, you are doing GREAT - its so funny how quickly we can forget about our BEFORE looks and start to judge our current looks. I'm starting to realize how it is possible for girls who weigh 120 to feel overweight - (not that I'm anywhere stinking NEAR that weight!!) but I'm starting to see how we women tend to judge our bodies no matter what size they are. You are beautiful just the way you are right now! with or without those last 10 pounds.
ReplyDeleteNow, on to a new week for us!!!! (I didn't stay within my bonus points last week... oops.) Today is a new day and a new week! We CAN do this! :o)