Monday, August 17, 2009

Overeating and stuff

So, as you may have guessed...I've been struggling on this whole weight thing.

I just want to eat all the time.

And I don't seem to care that my pants are tight.

I try to reset every morning, but resetting every morning gets old. It's hard to reset every morning off the heals of "failure". It's much easier to eat well when you ate well the day before. And I think it's especially frustrating given my success in the past. I know I can do why aren't I?

On the plus side? I've been exercising every day. Every single one. But, exercise alone doesn't lose weight. Or even maintain it. At least not for me.

I knew I was really in trouble two nights ago when my husband reminded me that I shouldn't be eating if I didn't have any points left. And do you know what I did? I got angry. And I almost started to cry! How dare he tell me I shouldn't eat? I didn't yell at him, though I wanted to. I just sat on the couch and sulked. And here's what really scared me. I haven't felt emotions like that over not eating food since the first few months after starting Weight Watchers over 2 years ago. Where did this desperation and anger over food come from?

Yes, my friends, I have issues.

I have my theories as to what's going on. And the rational side of me is telling myself to stop feeling the way I'm feeling. But, as I'm learning, feelings trump rationality more often than I'd like.

So to that end, I want to share a link that I stumbled upon this morning. It's about emotional eating. I'm going to link to Roni's blog...because that's where I found it and I think she deserves to be recognized for posting it. But what I'm really interested in sharing is the links she shared by Dr. Stephen Stosny. Read all four articles. Very interesting insights that I'm going to mull over for the next few weeks and see if they can help me not struggle as much.


  1. I will definitely check those articles out - and all I can say is that you are not alone - not even kind of. I was gonna try to call you yesterday after I read this, but then I ran out of time - its a crazy week! But I just so totally hear ya on the being back to sneaking food and getting mad at whoever even hints at the idea that I shouldn't be stuffing my face... because its all their fault, apparently. Just give me the food, and nobody gets hurt. :o)

  2. I am going to read those articles too! This is going to be an emotional week for me and I CANT use food to get through it.

    My exercise is consistent too... too bad it takes more than that to loose weight. agh. Know that you are NOT alone on this journey! Many of us have similar issues!!!