Sunday, June 15, 2008

In the interest of authenticity...

In the interest of authenticity, I'm going to write this post.

I see it often, someone who's rocking their weight loss and then stops rocking it and disappears from the online world. Be it blogging or the WW boards or whatever. I started this blog to be accountable. And so now I am. So, I'm going to share the good and the bad and I'm going to make my goal...darn it! Even if it takes me another year.

I miss the weeks when I KNEW I'd see a loss. That was me for most of this past year. That was me until I began to allow eating more points than I was allowed as an option into this journey. Tsk, tsk.

And now it's gotten a little out of control and I feel like I'm standing at a cliff, looking over and wondering if I'm going to jump or turn around and continue up this mountain that I've been climbing for almost a year. Don't worry, I'm not going to jump. I am not going back to my old ways because I don't like that person. I'm just struggling to find the strength right now to continue up the mountain. I'm beginning to understand what a huge accomplishment losing 100 lbs really is. It's going to be a bit harder than I'd originally thought.

I stepped on the scale this morning and to my horror, it read 177.2. Yes it did. A whole 6 FREAKIN' POUNDS higher than my WI on Monday. Now I know that it's not possible that it's all fat. I know I'm retaining water and all that stuff...but still. SIX POUNDS!!!!! This is getting ridiculous. RIDICULOUS!

So, I hopped on the treadmill this morning and walked 4 miles. And now I'll go get out of my sweaty clothes, get Finny out of her crib and start counting every morsel that goes into my gob.

I'm not going anywhere. I am going to get this weight off. And I'll post tomorrow, regardless of what the scale tells me.

6 comments:

  1. don't be too hard on yourself!

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  2. its important to share the good and the bad...makes readers know there not alone.... you'll get taht 6 off quickly with your mind too it...all the best and we are cheering you on :)

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  3. Amanda you are just incredible! I am totaly inspired by you and I know that you can do it. I am biteing the bullet and vowing to start exercising this week. I am starting couch to 5k. If you can get up and exercise before your THREE kiddos get up there is no reason why I cant fit in some AP after I get home from work. Just keep at it hun! You will do fine!

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  4. AWESOME POST! Thats EXACTLY how to use the blog!

    Doesn't it feel good to confess?

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  5. Thanks for the authenticity... you are so right and so brave! It reminds me that I need to get onto my blog and get back at posting.

    And congrats on the loss - going from a 6 pound gain to a 3 pound gain IS a loss, you know.

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