Sleep is SO important.
I've not been sleeping well the last week or so and it's beginning to show. Why am I not sleeping well? I'm not sure, but I don't like it. I spent much of my adolescence and early adult years unable to fall asleep easily...maybe that's why I took up reading. But I hate that feeling of tossing and turning in bed. And once it starts again...I hesitate to go to bed because I don't want to toss and turn. So I stay up late, even though I'm tired. Pfft. And then, last night, there was some drunken rowdiness in the place beside us...to which we share a wall. Beauty. Which woke me up and I could not fall back asleep. Until 5am. Yup. Thankfully, it sounds like those guys are going to be kicked out of the place...which makes me very, very happy.
I feel like that undisciplined 20 year old that I used to be. Tired all the time. Not wanting to do much except sit in front of the TV and eat. When I'm tired, my motivation drops. I don't want to do stuff around the house, so that discourages me and I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything and the house feels gross and disorderly...so I want to eat. I feel hungry when I'm tired and since I don't have the motivation or energy to say no...what do I do? Eat unnecessarily. Plus, I'm not real patient with the kids...which makes me want to eat. And the meals I cook aren't as healthy...thus bad point consumption. And there's nothing that can convince me to exercise...so no AP's. And my eyes are too sore to wear contacts, so I wear these 7 year old glasses that fall apart and make me feel ugly and dowdy. And feeling ugly makes me want to eat. It's a terrible cycle that I can't let myself get back into.
Amazing how important my sleep has become to me. And how important it is as a foundation for making positive and healthy lifestyle choices.Hopefully tonight I'll sleep.
A lot.
agh! i am the same way!!! one bad thing leads to another.
ReplyDeletewhen i go through spurts of nonsleeping i take an over the counter sleep aid when my kids go to bed so that it is kicking in good an hour or so later so that i can get a good night's sleep.
poor sweetie!!! i hope you get good sleep soon!!
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hang in there Manda. You'll catch up!
ReplyDeleteI love that you are so willing to share how your are doing - even in pictures.
I hate not being able to sleep. I suffer from insomnia from time to time and it is so frustrating. My problem is that I can fall asleep and then my brain kicks in and starts thinking about all of the things I need to do. This makes the eyes pop open and the rest is down hill from there. I hope you get some sleep soon.
ReplyDeleteoh I have been there.... I KNOW the feeling.... I wish you sweet dreams tonight.... *hugs*
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